It has been a little bit since I posted an update on how I have been doing so I thought that I would tonight.
First, my finals are over this Wednesday. I am so glad. This semester will finally be over. This semester has reminded me why there have been times in the past that I have not gone to school for a semester or two. This one has nearly killed me. It has been hard but I am thankful that I made it through. I could have only gotten through it with God and my loving family. My grades are not what I would have liked them to be but my GPA will be considered passing, so for this semester that will have to be good enough.
After much thought and debate with myself, as well as a long conversation with my doctor and my family, I have decided not to return to school in January. It was a very hard decision. I have been in school so long already and taking one more semester off will only push me further behind. My doctor agreed that my body needed the rest and the months off would overall be very good for my health. It actually felt kind of nice to have his faith; his validation was wonderful.
Usually a trip to see my specialist in Washington, D.C. does wonders for my health. Unfortunately, this time around has been quite different and we are actually contemplating returning to Washington to see him again because my health as continued to get worse since I returned home. Tomorrow, I will receive a 48 halter and blood pressure monitor to wear. Hopefully, my doctor can see some results and work with me via the telephone. If not, we will just go back to see him. But he if can make me feel better....we will go the distance! :)
Even though I have been sick for all this time and I have fainted from time to time (mostly in the very beginning), I always, always had distinct signals that I was fixing to faint. That way I could get somewhere to lay down or sit. I have started fainting-without any warning signs- 3 to 4 times a week. I have fainted in my closet, in my bathroom, the kitchen...you name it! I keep our cordless phone with me at all times because it has an intercom system on it. So, as soon as I regain consciousness, I can call someone in my family to come and help me. At the current moment, I can't be left alone, because we just don't know what will happen.
I am spending a lot of time in bed. I don't have very much energy, really. I am listening to a lot of books on tape and listening to my iPod, a lot. As I said in my previous post, I got out on Saturday for a little Christmas shopping. It was a lot of fun.
On a very special Christmas note, my very best friend, Becca had her first baby on December 5. She and I have been friends for 15 years...where time goes, I don't know?! She had her sweet baby boy, Jay. Tonight is their first night at home. I can't wait to me the little one!
Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you all have a Christmas miracle of your own this year!
Much love and joy!
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