Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Sustain Me

"Cast your burdens on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall."
Psalm 55:22 

Among other things, sustain means to to keep a person, their mind, spirits, etc., from giving way, as under trial or affliction. God promises to sustain me. He promises to hold me tight and not let me become lost in my afflictions. He promises that I will never fall. I am reminding myself of this, every single minute.

The last two weeks have been very hard ones. I haven't been able to do very much at all. I feel like I am spending more and more of my time in bed, with the shades drawn and with little noise because I am so sensitive to the stimulation. I am having a hard time eating and swallowing food and drinks. I am choking on most anything that I try to swallow. And to add insult to injury, my insomnia is raging. And not sleeping makes everything worse. I am only getting a few hours of sleep during the day because for some reason my mind refuses to settle and allow me to have a restful night's sleep.

I am trying hard -very hard- to remain positive. I feel so bad and I am so tired, it is hard to do some days. I know these days will pass but in the meantime, I am trying to get through each hour. I say to myself, just breathe.
My spirit is seems battered right now and tears come so easily. I am very sad.
I am not able to be on the computer very much right now. It is difficult to find the energy and thought to try and post and visit you all. I know it sounds strange to say that being online is an effort but thank you all for being so supportive.

I hope to *see* you all very soon!


1 comment:

Kelli said...

I know you aren't here just for me. But truly really I have so enjoyed your posts. Hugs and Love and I'm praying for you. xox Kelli

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